Have you ever felt ...

Have you ever felt as if you were isolated from the world and the people in it?

As if there was a barrier of glass between you and them.

You hear their voices and their laughter echoing around you - so close and yet so very distant.

You feel as if you're not really part of them. As if you don't actually belong. And that whether or not you were there - it wouldn't make a difference.

 You feel as if no matter how hard you try to just be yourself - it simply isn't enough. That you'll always be a mere shadow - forgotten and stepped on.

And then you wonder to yourself, is it worth it? To be surrounded by people who couldn't care less about your very existence.

And then you write corny lines to make yourself feel better and just end up sounding pathetic.

Yumna, Yumna, Yumna, for God's sake - stop being so depressed. :/*

Alright. Alright. But seriously though - I do feel like that sometimes no matter how hard I try not to. It's frustrating, tbh. And I know I shouldn't feel this way - especially when I have so much to be thankful for,  but deep down, I just can't help it at times. And I'm not writing this for pity or anything like that - I'm simply  letting out how I feel. (It was actually just an on the whim kind of thing) As to why I feel this way? I don't know. I'm a woman - we can't understand even ourselves. :p  Writing out my feelings though has certainly made me feel better ...  which is probably a good thing, right? ...

   Sigh. I need a break. A long one. Preferably by myself. Far, far, away. On the upside - I do have one week of vacation to look forward to - which is going to be filled with chocolate and sleep. <3 (Assuming that isn't ruined by tons of guests and an invasion of my privacy) Now, that will certainly be lovely.

Now I think I shall quit writing seeing as I probably sound like a depressed person who just needs a hug. 

*Yes, I talk to myself. Don't mind me.